A Mothers Hope: PART ONE - The Expectant hope

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As a child, we grow up watching and knowing our parents are doing everything they can to make sure we have a good start and are well taken care of. To say my first year here was a little rocky is a huge understatement, and it hasn't been until becoming a mother myself that I finally have a small understanding of the fear and torment my parents went through that first 12 months. 

Ive heard my mother tell the story of what happened to me as a baby a million times over. So when I asked her if she would write a little Blog about my childhood, I expected a few paragraphs stating the facts, some brief stories and a little into how it must have felt going through the rollercoaster. When mum sent me the first few chapters, I read it with a lump in my throat and a whole new perspective of what living with a sick child must have felt like. 

 Whether you're reading for something to do, curious to know what happened or maybe you're looking for a little bit of hope in a world that can sometimes feel pretty dark. I really hope you enjoy it. 

- Janelle xx 

A Mothers Hope by Susie Bartlett.  

The Expectant hope:

Sometimes in life you go through a terrible, horrific crisis, like a bad nightmare that never seems to end, in fact the situation only gets worse ......this was one of those times and yet now it's just faded memories.
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

The year was 1990 and life was busy with two children under the age of 5, yet my clucky thermometer had a high reading and I wanted another baby. We lived on a small farm in Healesville, Australia and had an assortment of family pets, so it was a idyllic place to raise children. Unfortunately falling pregnant had proven hard for me in the past and I had just had my fifth miscarriage, however the next month I fell pregnant with another little blessing. After a careful first three months, it was an uneventful pregnancy, however financial hard times had us quickly facing the loss of the farm to avoid bankruptcy. We had just joined the church and become Christians and I remember them bringing food parcels to help us save money for bills. By the time our baby was born, we were moving into a small rented cottage in town, a big step back in our life and with a lot of debt to be paid off.
I usually had no trouble choosing baby names but because I wanted the middle name to be Kylie, if the baby was a girl, and it was proving hard. Kylie had been a friend of mine, like a little sister, who had passed away at the young age of 15 years from an asthma attack, so it was important to me to have a special name to compliment it. So with only six weeks to go till my due date, I picked up a newspaper and on the back page saw a girl called Janelle. Later that night we agreed that would be our sweet baby girl's name...Janelle Kylie Bartlett. It would not be until three years later, that I would discover the significance of choosing that particular name.
 Janelle came into the world around about midday on the 15.12.1990. She should have been born earlier but she had her arm around her neck with her elbow sticking out. The answer is yes, it was very painful and that last stage where they say 'one more push' lasted over an hour. But nevertheless our little princess was born to add to our growing collection of gorgeous little munchkins and the intense labour had been worth it, as she was absolutely perfect.
On visiting the hospital's baby nursery during the following days I noticed a newborn baby boy, whose face was very disfigured. He looked like he had been punched in the eye and the right side of his face was bruised and swollen. My heart was saddened as I took in his tiny features and my curiosity grew wanting to know what was wrong with him. I asked the nurse what had happened and she explained that he had just come out the wrong way, bumped his little face and all that swelling and bruising would soon disappear. I felt sorry for the parents having their little boy look like that for his first photos, but was pleased to find out he would soon look normal again.... but then again, what defines 'normal?'. However looking back now, I believe this encounter was not coincidental, it was God preparing me for what I would soon have to face and He was letting me know things would eventually be alright. As I went back to the ward and held my adorable newborn baby girl, swaddled safely in a pink blanket sleeping peacefully, I was blissfully unaware that I had just hopped on a huge rollercoaster ride!
Go to PART TWO: Has hope left  

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  • Such an incredible story… Thankyou for sharing and thankyou for taking the courage in trialing this drug…

    My daughter (now 2years old) was diagnosed with an internal optical Hemangioma at 5months after I discovered a lump in her cheek at 9 weeks old… After lots of second opinions and me persisting after an MRI at 5 months we received our answers… by then her eye was totally swollen and bruised looking… (likewise, the looks and comments from others heartbreaking)

    Since then we have been on Propranolol with huge success and we are in the early stages of weaning…

    I thankyou for all your hours of prays as you have helped many children and mothers through your journey for finding a cure or at least an awareness and answers… xxx

    Vivian on

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